Hello all! So, I wanted to share a little bit of the journey God has taken me on. It’s crazy how much I think I know about the Holy Spirit until God reveals something to me, and I’m like ‘how did I miss this?’
It all started when I had an unusual dream. In the dream, I looked out over a balcony and saw outer space and the earth, which was partly on fire. Next to the earth was a Bible flipped open to Zechariah, with verses highlighted, though I couldn’t make out what they were. So naturally when I woke up, I felt like I should read that book, and I did. Andddd nothing. Nothing really stood out to me. The book is a somewhat apocalyptic but other than that I wasn’t convinced that there was something in this book I was supposed to read. And as if on cue, right after I was about to shrug it off as nothing, I heard a voice in my mind. “Read it 3 times.” I felt more confident that I would find something that I missed before. So I was disappointed when I read Zechariah 3 times over and didn’t have the big revelation I was hoping for. The next day at work, I explained to a coworker my spiritual troubles. Though she herself didn’t know much about Zechariah, she did give me some advice. She told me that God will reveal it in his own time, and to be patient and pray.
A few days passed since my reading in Zechariah, it was Sunday and I went to church. I had flipped open my Bible to Psalms and began reading chapter 119, verse 33-40. As I was reading, I made these verses my prayer. I felt like if I could say anything to God in that moment to express how I felt, that was it. I had missed church the previous Sunday, and it felt like an eternity since I felt God’s spirit at work in me, and I desperately wanted to change that. After feeling like I somehow failed God with the whole Zechariah thing, I longed for understanding and fellowship with the Lord.
And God did not disappoint.
As soon as the service started I could feel God all over me. My heart began beating out of my chest and I felt like if I didn’t take off running or shouting, something, I would explode. I just took off out of my seat and shouted praise to the Lord. I was sobbing like crazy but the only thing I felt was overwhelming joy and utter amazement at God’s love for me. I felt the affects of His Spirit for the rest of the day. When I was laying in bed, thinking about the earlier service, it hit me like a ton of bricks. Had I not read Zechariah more than once I might not have remembered this. Zechariah 4:6 “Not by might, nor by power, but by My Spirit.”
I almost started shouting again!
God did in fact reveal it to me, at a time I would understand, when I was dwelling on the Holy Spirit.
If you didn’t read the Psalms I mentioned earlier, here it is for you:
“Teach me, Lord, the way of your decrees, that I may follow it to the end. Give me understanding, so that I may keep your law and obey it with all my heart. Direct me in the path of your commands, for there I find delight. Turn my heart toward your statutes and not toward selfish gain. Turn my eyes away from worthless things; preserve my life according to your word. Fulfill your promise to your servant, so that you may be feared. Take away the disgrace I dread, for your laws are good. How I long for your precepts! In your righteousness preserve my life.”
I feel like the words in Zechariah were an answer to this Psalm that I prayed. On another note, it’s crazy that God orchestrated my dream, knowing my prayer and having his divine answer ready before I even prayed it!
I can’t wait to share more of my spiritual journey with you, and I would love to hear YOUR experiences with God!
I pray for you reading this, whoever you are, wherever you are, that God would touch your life and your heart, and that you can experience the everlasting joy that comes with knowing and loving him. AMEN!