A premonition is defined as a strong feeling that something is about to happen, especially something unpleasant. Up until recently, I would have blamed my own premonition on the usual anxiety that is mostly always responsible for any feeling of dread I ever have.
I say ‘up until recently’ because ‘recently’ is when I’ve been trying hard to stay on the straight and narrow path that God has set out for me. In my personal experience, I don’t think it’s a coincidence that I had a premonition of an unpleasant situation. I think God purposely planted it in my head to prepare me for what was to come, and for that I am thankful because otherwise, I believe the shock would have caused me to become defensive and angry.
Now don’t get me wrong, it was still unpleasant. Someone had made remarks about certain choices I have made as a parent, and as a first time mom, it’s never easy to hear others put you down for trying to do what you think is best for your child. When I was experiencing my “premonition” I saw the scenario (not the same exact one, but similar) play out in my head. I also kept thinking of how I would respond to such criticism. I replayed it over and over, almost preparing myself Incase that were to ever happen. And then it did. I was still shocked, more so because I felt like “wow what are the odds that I felt like this was gonna happen and here we are” and I was a little hurt. But because God had given me a little forewarning, I didn’t react out of emotion and say something I would regret later.
I also pray a lot for God to continue to guide and teach me things. Even when I make mistakes, I pray that he won’t give up on me. God answered my prayer and showed me how to react so that I avoided confrontation and also strengthened my trust in him. As I was reflecting on this to share with you all, I got my daily verse reminder which was Jeremiah 17:10 “I the Lord search the heart and examine the mind, to reward each person according to their conduct, according to what their deeds deserve.” God was letting me know that trusting him to guide me did not go unnoticed, and that he knows what’s in my heart and mind.